Thursday, October 23, 2008

Why are you crying...

I realized a couple of weeks ago at church that I don't know Jesus as well as I should. What I mean is, that it seems like everyone else I know is always talking about being friends with Jesus and spending time with Jesus. In my search for an answer to all the questions I have in my heart I am always searching for God. Not that there's anything wrong with that, and they are one in the same, but I think you know what I'm getting at. So I decided to spend some time reading the Gospels. I just started the book of Luke last night. I read John last week because my dad always said it was his favorite gospel. I came across this story:

Then the disciples went back to their homes, but Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus' body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot.

They asked her, "Woman, why are you crying?"

"They have taken my Lord away," she said, "and I don't know where they have put him." At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus.

"Woman," he said, "why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?"
Thinking he was the gardener, she said, "Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him."

Jesus said to her, "Mary."
She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, "Rabboni!" (which means Teacher).

-John 20:10-16

Here's what's so ironic to me: He asked her "Why are you crying?" This seems like the dumbest question on the planet. She is a woman in a cemetary. You don't have to be Sherlock Holmes to know why she's crying. Isn't it obvious she's in pain, she's lost? She was so lost in the sadness she didn't notice that Jesus had risen.
Sometimes I am like Mary Magdeline. I often get so wrapped up in my doubts, or my grief feeling all the while that it's obvious why I'm this way. But sometimes I forget that Jesus has risen and that he makes all things new. I am thanking God for the joy that I have in that today.

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